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Sunday, May 30, 2010

Other teens

A friend of mine will be having a baby in a few months. He is my age, and not married, and the father of the baby doesn't want anything to do with them now, and has left her to fend for herself with some of her relatives. She is a great girl, that went down the wrong track, but I am so happy I can help in any way. I am planning on making lots of things for her coming baby. And I am trying to find the right patterns and yarns and cloths so they can be perfect. Camp starts in 22 days. So I have that many to sew almost everythign I want to make, and to plan out all of the crocheting, because I will need to have the yarn, hooks, and patterns at camp to work on in my free time. Wish me luck! and If you have any good patterns, or ideas please let me know! she is having a boy btw. thank you! :)

To be a wife. #1

To be a good wife I first need to keep myself pure for my husband. For me this is a constant uphill battle. I have really low self esteem sometimes. So the "dress to impress" mentality is always in my mind when I get dressed or do my hair or makeup. I try to make sure that people will think good of me when they see me. If my boyfriend says something even slightly negative about something I am wearing or how I look, I take it pretty hard. And I probably will not wear that around him anymore, even if it was something that it was just bunched up in a certain way, I would be worried that would happen again. Or if he says my make up is smudged, trying to be helpful, I will be nervous and paranoid about it all of the time.
So, what goes along with those is dressing to impress. When he tells me he likes something I wear, my brain always snaps to what the media puts out, that guys like it hot and sexy. So without meaning to I always think "maybe he would like it even better with one less button..." or "maybe if it was shorter" even though I know he wouldn't like them better, that is what I think.
So, one of my many goals, is to keep focused on how God would want me to dress for my future husband, not how I think my boyfriend would like me accourding to media. That may sound like a small thing to you, but it is a struggle for me, and so... it is one I will work on.